Plea

It’s funny how I see it now
After reading an allusion
And then I find that all this time
I’ve fallen for delusion

I tried my best but failed the test
Now even my words are fleeing
Betrayed you then, and once again
And suddenly I’m seeing

How do you take us back when
All we do is kill you once more?
How do you adore us when
We’re running right back out the door?

I love you, we know it’s true
You’re what I’ve always lived for
But temptation has always won
By knocking on my heart’s door

It’s not even like it’s the time of my life
Running has brought me such pain
All this fuss for a momentary buzz
Another link in my chain

How do you take us back when
All we do is kill you once more?
How do you adore us when
We’re running right back out the door?

Heaven help me, I cry to you
Help me do what I know that I should do

How do you take us back when
All we do is kill you once more?
How do you adore us when
We’re running right back out the door?

Yes, I wrote this one too. No, it’s not about a boy.

Carry Me Away

Floating down this river, I
Think it’s time to change my mind
Thoughts that I controlled one time
Have carried me away

Standing at this corner post
I thought that I had seen your ghost
But thoughts that I had wanted most
Have carried me away

Running from recurring dreams
Smiling up at blue moonbeams
Knowing it’s not what it seems
Yet it carries me away

How can I explain this feeling
I have not had time to feel?
How can I hold it inside me
How will I know if it is real?
The words you say, the words I hate
The feelings that we complicate
How can I hold it inside me?
It’s carrying me away

Standing here outside your door
I know that I have wanted more
I couldn’t find the words before
They carried me away

Take my hand inside your own
Lead me on to your soul’s throne
Tell me that you’ve always known
And it carried you away

Say it to my aching heart
Say we’ll never be apart
What a splendid piece of art
And it carries us away

How can I explain this feeling
I have not had time to feel?
How can I hold it inside me
How will I know if it is real?
The words you say, the words I hate
The feelings that we complicate
How can I hold it inside me?
It’s carrying me away

Poem in Progress

How do you describe a love so deep that you would do anything and give everything for this person? How do you explain to people that you’d rather cut off your own arm than hurt them, and that you would supress this very love just to keep the friendship? How do you rationalize a relationship that isn’t a rollercoaster, but more like a zigzagging staircase… always, always going up, but flipping between brotherly love and romantic love? How do you stop yourself from ruining it for the sake of letting go of your emotions? How can you make people understand that this isn’t just another crush… it’s someone you’re willing to spend the rest of your life with?

Maybe I can get a poem out of this.